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Hmm...interesting...Dr. McIvor requested me to go for a blood sample...maybe I was using drugs LOL! If I was, I wouldn't be seeing her, would I? So, blood test on Sunday and maybe..only MAYBE she would prescribe me some meds...this is freaky stuff..

I also had a chat with my husband..told him that I think of leaving him and took off..He felt really down but I think he deserves to know how I feel. In order for him to morally support me, he should know these things. Apparently he has no clue although he mentioned that I was gradually became more grumpy and snappy at him over the years...He also acknowledge that the Doc might be right about me being depressed.

How do I feel? I hate my life...still..I hate my feeling that I don't have the feeling to love. I still hate everything and everybody. I hate that I have to smile all the time to face those assholes at work. No one competent in doing their job in this country. No laws can support any employees in this country. This country is an effin F$@&!%%!!-up country..

...tbc....