That's what i thought..

ROFL! my last n3 , i was saying about me forgetting the password to my own blog page. Voila! I just got my password resetted..yet again!

So many things happen within these four months. Let me start from the latest downwards. Well, yesterday morning I received a text from my sister saying our eldest sister (from a diff mom) has passed away in the hospital from heart failure. Her heart grew weak and she had difficulty in breathing so they took her to the hospital and the admitted her. Thinking it's not that critical, everyone went home thinking of coming back the next day for visit. But then no one had the chance to say final goodbye as she were pronounced dead without any family members' presence. How sad :'^(

Then this morning, my good friend texted me that one of our good friend's father had passed away too from chirrosis. I went to her house when I was in KL during Eid recently. Her dad was really in bad condition. He can't remember much and always fell and hurt himself. Only one day he fell so bad during the night no one was around until they heard he can't breathe and immediately took him to Kajang Hospital where doc treated him and put him in a coma so his organ can rest.At the end of the day he's on life support machine for at least a week.

That's life...every living will meet the end. It's all up to us how to live the life we have.

Time, Where Art Thou???

This entry is to tell that I have no time to hapdate this blog. So many things happens all these months and I got no time to write. Will come back soon, before I forget the password to enter Blogger.com hahaa!

Arrghhh!

What the...??!! Don't you get it?? Okay, so it is my birthday tomorrow...so what? That is so typical of this certain someone, okay, she is nice, but I don't need to be reminded of my birthday, no need fancy lunch or surprise gathering. If I said I can't make it to join them because MY SON have an appointment with a doctor, and this doctor's schedule is really packed, she can hardly have a slot to see Ayden, so be it. I can't means I can't. It is nice of her to arrange a special lunch at a fancy restaurant, I admit it, but she doesn't have to! This put me in a very sticky situation if I can't come up with something brilliant for her special day or birthday in the future.

Over these years I've been take take take from her special doings and surprises and I am not that creative to figure out to do the same. I feel really bad about it. Feel bad almost angry. Furthermore I don't want to terhutang budi too much. I already terhutang soooo many budi until I feel obliged to follow what she says. It's hard though, coz then if I don't she might say "tak kenang budi, I've done so much for her..." etc..etc..

If it's up to me, I couldn't care less, but I'm still a human with a heart.

two months already?

what? two months since my last ramblings? gee..where are the time gone? Actually, time tu ada je..just tak cukup nak pikior what to type. Routine has been established..thankfully. Although sometimes I get a little flexible with the little one, otherwise he might think I'm running a military camp. lol!

Okay...what happens these days, gossip here and there with Tasha, mostly. About this other friend. Okay. I know Tasha for like 8 years, and this newfound friend, (name witheld) say si N just lest than a year. So I dont know her, what I know is that she always talk about money. She's super rich okay..duit berkoyan koyan. She gave a lot of her son's old baby clothes to me, which I accept with an open heart, but takyah lah nak mention apa brand, and how much they cost. Like I care! If you want to give, give la..no need to tell me how much they were..macam tak ikhlas gitu.

And Tasha pulak baru perasan si minah ni asyik cakap pasal duit. I was well aware of that since the beginning. Okay, she lives in a villa, have 3 cars of which 2 of them are luxury cars, marry a Captain which means everytime she travel, it's always FIRST CLASS.. very posh person but she don't have to tell me how much she spent on things. I seriously don't care. Bukan nak bagi aku sikit kalau asyik cakap pasal duit. We dont judge her, she doesnt have to explain where the money come from and how she got it...At first she was kind of a private person, but lately it's kinda changing. She have a Kelantan accent..(not that I generalize, but I don't really click with Kelantanese)

Gossip one done! Secondly I have another friend who hates another friend. What am I going to do with these two?? I am smack in the middle. when i go out with A, I couldnt pick up phone call from B, I know this B person for a long time, but this A and me kinda click very well.. we always hang out together and share a lot of things in common. And I like her style, I learn from her. This A & B doesnt like each other because A think B is always trying to give advice on how to raise her daughter and B is a super mom that can manage to do everything and like to be praised (that's what I think) She always have solutions. I think sometimes you dont have to compare other mom and herself. We like to do our own way, B doesnt have to tell whats the best way of doing things. Let us new moms learn from our mistakes. And just so you know, this B is a very generous person. She always trying to give. But sometimes I got nothing to offer back. I dont know how to tell her to stop giving, coz there's nothing she can take from me. Then I would feel obliged to follow her suggestions just because I feel bad that she gave me so many things already.