Emptiness

I feel....empty. Yes that's the word I'm looking for. Empty.Period. I felt hollow. Is it missing someone..? I don't know. Is it missing something...? I don't know. The tear duct is almost overflow, but I will contain it as long as I can. No point letting the tears flow..as if this emptiness would get filled.

Do I have friends..? Yes. Do I want to see them..? No. Why..? Because I'm empty. Do I need help..? I don't know...Maybe all I need is SEX..LMAO! With whom..? Husband of course! But...where is he..? He is 5906.23 kilometers away from me. Again...LMAO! And what? For another week? GREAT!!!

What do I normally do when I feel like this? I punch/kick/throw something. Well, at least when my both knees are healthy. Now they went to an extensive surgeries repairing my ACL in the past 5 years. So, can I kick..? NO.

My diagnosis : I HATE THIS COUNTRY I'M LIVING IN. period.