Arrghhh!

What the...??!! Don't you get it?? Okay, so it is my birthday tomorrow...so what? That is so typical of this certain someone, okay, she is nice, but I don't need to be reminded of my birthday, no need fancy lunch or surprise gathering. If I said I can't make it to join them because MY SON have an appointment with a doctor, and this doctor's schedule is really packed, she can hardly have a slot to see Ayden, so be it. I can't means I can't. It is nice of her to arrange a special lunch at a fancy restaurant, I admit it, but she doesn't have to! This put me in a very sticky situation if I can't come up with something brilliant for her special day or birthday in the future.

Over these years I've been take take take from her special doings and surprises and I am not that creative to figure out to do the same. I feel really bad about it. Feel bad almost angry. Furthermore I don't want to terhutang budi too much. I already terhutang soooo many budi until I feel obliged to follow what she says. It's hard though, coz then if I don't she might say "tak kenang budi, I've done so much for her..." etc..etc..

If it's up to me, I couldn't care less, but I'm still a human with a heart.