FEAR

of having kids of my own... Yesterday a 5 year-old boy tells his mama to go to Auntie Sue's house so he can play Guitar Hero/Rockband with her. The time finally came..once he enter the door, he straight away come to me and say :" Auntie Sue, how do I turn this game on?" His mom, a friend and I were in the kitchen gossiping and munching away. Kalle was in the same room. For Godsake, help the poor child, instead he's busy with his computer and claimed later that the boy doesn't let him fix the game and wanted to do all by himself, so Kalle got tired of him and left to the computer room. (good parenting, huh??)

I've played with this boy a few times and yes he is VERY competitive and quite aggressive too. He have a blue or black belt in karate (not quite sure)..well..5 year old in karate class....food for thought: would you send your kids to a karate class at that age? (do you think they know how and when to use the self-defense move?) They might end up breaking things and throw a kick or two if things doesn't get in their way..well...who am I to judge...lantak laaa..bukan anak aku :P Then we decided to play all together, I took the guitar, his mama took the mic and he took the drum kit (my precious drum kit, that I bought in KL and carry in my suitcase to Dubai...handle with so ever care that no one WOULD TOUCH IT)..alas...hancusss...dapat kat budak sekor ni... from what I saw at his home..drum kit looks like its having its last breath..3 mics has been 'eaten' by his 14 months old little sister, guitar buttons that doesn't work anymore.. (i'm praying hard that my equipments does not have the same fate)

Yes, it's just a game equipment...tend to break sometime...but I HAVE NO KIDS and why would I let other people's kid break MY things...?? WHYYYYY? And what's with this you, me and her score??? We play in a band and it doesn't matter who gets the highest score, we are in a team...and he got really upset when his score was really low and saying "Not fair! Auntie Sue has the highest score because she has a lot of practice!" Xcuse me??? Look at your equipment at home! How are you going to practice if you bang the things like there's no tomorrow and stomp on the foot pedal and has no clue on what note to hit? (YOU ARE FRIGGIN' FIVE FU^!%#&* YEARS OLD FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!)

I know this ramblings sounds pathetic especially if it's about a 5 year-old. Who the F&!^ cares! It's my blog, I got to write what I want..Don't like it...piss off!!!

Let me ramble some more...then at the end we (his mom and I) yell wooohooo!!!! we made it!! even after gazillion of time I had to 'save' him from getting a boo from the crowd..he wasn't happy and thought we are laughing at his poor performance (We took it as he was really tired, it's like 7.45pm, and his bedtime is at 7) and start BANGING MY=====DRUM SET with his elbow! I can't watch that and said : " 'NAME' heyyy...you can do that to your own drum, but not mine PLEASE..." and he started shouting and crying and bang some more... He ran straight to the door and almost break my goddamn door! WTF!! (results of sending a kid to a karate class, I would say) And by this time his mom gets really angry and shout at him ;bla...bla...bla... mom-son-coaching-session....bla..bla...bla... Then the nightmare was over...Lessons learned:

• Do not expose your kid to an adult stuff unless they know how to use it
• Do not send your kid to a self-defense class until they understand what it is for and know when and how to use it (for competition is okay..but let them at least be 8 or more, when they can start taking parts in a tournament and stuff)

• Set some boundaries (yes, they should be treated like an individual) but they should also learn to lose.

God knows how scared I am carrying this in-utero of mine...let it be a girl...at least she would play with a doll and kitchen set...and NOT banging MY drum set..lol!

It's hard being a parent, I guess...from the look at other kids and my sister's kids...blimey! How can I ever be one! I can't even handle myself..how to handle a child???? God, this freaks me out!