Where To Start

So, where whall I start? Everyone nowadays having a blog, what's the deal..don't ask me, I haven't got any clue. Some say its fun, some need to say out loud what they think in their head..some also says it is therapeutic to put whats in your head in writing..me? I dunno, the latter i think. I have shit loads of time but don't know where they went. All the years pass before me so quickly and I had the impression that I haven't grasp any of it. Yes, I got married (phew..to some people they think it would never happen), I've travelled almost everywhere in the world, embraced new cultures and learn new things but why is it that I still feel empty?! What the heck is wrong with me? Every day I wake up asking myself, what to do today? And the answer is always.."let me sleep some more"...if I don't face the computer all day long (when I'm not flying) I'd rather sleep or play video games and read. I have no wish to see anyone or been out of the flat.

I'm well aware of the 'condition' but rather keep it to myself for this moment, after all..it's therapeutic, remember?

I guess living in a sandbox does take its toll. I always thought I'd be happier living here in the Middle East. Modern city, you can get whatever you wish for any time. I have the chance to travel when ever I want..but no..i'm not as happy as people think I am. More than meets the eye, figuratively speaking.

So, here I am...writing a blog for the whole world to read..or at least who ever can find it.